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my life is like 'groundhog day'. the only difference is that time keeps going forward. oh, and the fact that i can control that this is happening.

here we go again

i have decided to start the 52 weeks photo project. 365 didn't go so well, but here we go.
this past week has been.... tiring. lots of work, getting kori ready for middle school, trying to pay off bills, things like that. Let's not forget the huge amount of effort that i put into pretending that i am not stressing out. it can't be good for me, that last thing. i'm not sure it where it goes, or exactly how much of it can go there, but it's working for now.
everything will work out. i know. just wished i had planned it better, or planned it at all. but either way, buy the ticket, take the ride. right?
i've also realized this past week, that i am lacking social stimulation something fierce. i get some at work, luckily. otherwise, it is just me and kori, and she is very busy socially. i am happy about this, but it leaves me alone quite a bit. i need to do something about this. next weekend i turn thirty-one and i plan on going out to shake it like i'm sellin it with the ladies. perhaps this will make me feel less humdrum.
i guess the point of this really is that i have made it through another week. maybe a little more tired, perhaps a tad more reclusive, but im here.

brought to you be the letter W

Too many words, too much wine and too much weed.
I'm spent.

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things i would like right now:
my body to realize how tired it is.
to stop eating these swedish fish. it's surprising how hard this is.
to be home, alone, long enough to take photos.
someone to play with my hair while i fall asleep.

it's just poor taste sweetie

word on the street is that i should be more ticked off about this.
if not at both of you, at least one. you. my friend.
but i knew it was coming. i've known for a long time.
i'm not sure if it is that, combined with the fact that i am not 'hung up' on him, but i am not mad.
i am, however, slightly annoyed by the awkward situations i may find myself and the lil lady in.
but what can be done? choices made and lives to be led.
at least i know, that just like the past three years, our lives aren't that intertwined anymore.
also, i must say, goodness! ya'll work with a quickness.

probably shoulda seen that coming too huh?

happiness to both of you as long as possible.
i think i may just leave myself out of it for awhile.

side effects

i have been rather reclusive lately.
i blame the combination of chantax and birth control, started all at once.
i just don't really feel like doing anything when i'm home. well, except sleeping.

oh well.

i'll take a few weeks of side effects if it means i wont be smoking or reproducing.
plus i've heard nothing negative about 9 1/2 hours of sleep a night.

he calms me down